Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Dont forget to remember me

"Don't Forget To Remember Me"

18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they just drug on and on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
'Baby don't forget
Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
There's a 50 in the ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a Bible
If you ever lose your way
Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me'

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
And those bills there on the counter
Keep telling me I'm on my own
And just like every Sunday
I called momma up last night
And even when it's not,
I tell her everything's alright
Before we hung up I said
'Hey momma, don't forget
to tell my baby sister
I'll see her in the fall
And tell mee-ma that I miss her
Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy
that I'm still his little girl
Yeah, I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me'

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say
but'Lord I feel so small sometimes
in this big ol' place
Yeah, I know there are more important things,
But don't forget to remember me
~
I would like to think every kid who's been away from home can relate to this.....coming home late at night and realizing you're all alone in a foreign country, telling your parents what you think they need to hear even if it's not always true.....clinging on to every single childhood memory you have in a desperate attempt to convince yourself that nothing's changed because deep down you know that when you do get to go back things will be different ... and you will feel like a stranger in your own home.

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Sunday, May 28, 2006

Chocolate is good for the soul

It's two and half weeks to my flight home, I am stressed in a will-point-a-gun-at-the-next-person-who-pisses-me-off kind of way, I can't sleep at night because I get hungry thinking about char kuay tiaw, but I refuse to pay 7 pounds for it or get up for a midnight substitute snack because I simply will not be greeted with "wahseh! u go UK put on damn a lot of weight ah!" after my one year absence...( be warned, I have been living on salad for the past term, and will sock you in the eye if you say anything remotely close to the above statement. and now that I know the human anatomy like the back of my hand, I know exactly where it hurts the most).

So what is a girl to do? enter FOOD BLOGS!.....slightly sadistic to make myself look at pictures of char kuay tiaw and roti telur at 1 in the morning, but it'll have to do for now:P
came across this one recipe for a flourless chocolate cake with a molten center....brought back memories of the baby chocolate volcano at Chili's..Boy! we go get sick on cocktails and chocolate cakes when I come back k!

but yes, so I got up at 8, went to ASDA's to pick up the ingredients...and promised half the staff that I would return bearing cakes the next day for all their help...I swear ..i must be the only person who gets lost in a fucking supermarket...well more hypermarket la...but still...did you know they label the aisles????...I didnt........ oh but all the embarassment and incredibly blonde moments in ASDA were so bloody worth it....


chocolate at its most sinful



drool dahlings, drool :)

On hindsight, the little gems were a little dry...but nothing a bit of ice-cream can't take care of...suppose the lovely molten centre balances it out nicely...will consider adding some bananas to the molten center to lighten the whole thing up......

But for now, all's well, I'm stressed no more..."I feel happeee, oh so happeee, oh so happeee and witty and brrriiight..."lalala:D






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Friday, May 26, 2006

Go Taylor!!

I spent half an hour talking about babies today....i deserve a frickin trophy considering I dont even like the damn things but that's being professional for you:P

my study buddy says attractive people have attractive friends....which means all you people mirror yours truly on the "fit"-ness scale....poor buggers:P....but then he also said I'm high maintenence...which pretty much flushes his credibility down the drain.

they say incoherence is the first sign of.......I googled it and it says "a brilliant mind"....was hoping for something more related to my brain shutting down...bygones....lalala

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Monday, May 22, 2006

According to the Oxford Dictionary..

Jade--[adjective]: visually addictive

hell yea I am!..hahaha...talk about a much needed ego boost:P

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

Beauty and the Geek

www.medschoolsonline.co.uk

First up, a BIG thank you to those who cared enough to sign the petition....I got sick of revision so I went to the website and combed the list for familiar names.....wahaha...but yea...means a lot that you took the trouble and rest assured that the next time you have one for me to sign, I will do so at least 3 times under 3 different e-mail adresses ..so *HUGS*.....even if I did force Clement to sign it...but hey..I can only bring the cow to the water:P

Been blog-hopping the last few days....and for some reason every single blog I came acoss mentioned debate tourneys and public speaking competitions in some way or the other......granted debates were never really my thing...nay..I didnt get a chance to make it my thing because I'm a self-centred brat who hates the idea of sharing my glory and not getting to keep the trophy......or so says the teacher who never really took to me...:P

No, Public speaking was more my forte....and how I loved it...the butterflies in the stomach when you first arrive at the venue, checking out the competition and have the competition sass you out, fully aware that they are up against the defending champion, the tingle you feel when they call out your name and the title of your prepared speech,the adrenaline rush on stage, and coming off stage and having everyone stare at you and knowing that deep down they're going.."shit".....then there's being cooped up in the quarantine room, peeling of the sheet of paper to reveal the impromptu title, the 4 minutes to come up with something engaging and relevant and most importantly, memorable....and to have people come up to you during the interval quoting something you just made up 4 minutes ago........I'm not even going to attempt to be modest....I was good at what I did...and by God I miss it.......

I've lost my edge...my need to compete and win....could it be that I'm finally satisfied and fully secure? that I no longer need the validation that comes with being National Champion at the age of 10?......hardly....I still get kicks out of any chance to adress a roomful of people...even if it is just describing my baby's feeding habits to my GP....but the drive is gone....and I dont know if it's in hibernation...or gone for good....and that uncertainty bugs me...

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Of petitions and signatures

www.medschoolsonline.co.uk

I realize the previous post was not exactly informative....so here's the bit I copied from the above website:
"Petition against new immigration/work permit rules for international medical students.

This online petition simply calls for a delay in the implementation of
the new immigration and visa rules for international medical students
currently studying at a UK medical school, until they have completed
their entire postgraduate training (to CCT level or equivalent). Rather
than introduce these new immigration and visa changes in one step, we,
the undersigned, would ask the Home Office to phase in the new
regulations over time.


-->
The Home Office has recently announced changes to the immigration rules, which will make it almost impossible for international (non-UK/EU) doctors to get post-foundation programme jobs in the UK. Under the new rules, all international doctors will need to be awarded a work permit in order to work in the UK, and will only be offered a job if there is no suitable EU or UK applicant for the job that they are applying to.
Whilst this should ensure that there are enough jobs nationwide for medical graduates of EU/UK origin, our international medical students have had the rug pulled out from under them.

When our current international medical students decided to pursue their medical education in the UK, the immigration rules that existed at the time entitled them to the same access to post-graduate jobs and training as UK graduates. However, the government has decided to change the rules, with no exemption for those international students who are already studying medicine in the UK. We believe this is a serious injustice for those international students who made their decision to pursue their medical education in the UK on the basis that they would be permitted to complete their post-graduate medical training here.

Many will now be forced to return to their home countries after just one year as an SHO, in order to complete their postgraduate training. This petition asks that the new rulings be phased in, and that international students (who will graduate or have already graduated from a UK medical school) are allowed to complete their post-graduate training in the UK. We believe this is the only fair and honourable way for the government to proceed, as our current international students had no idea, when they decided to study here, that the goal posts would be moved so dramatically midway through their undergraduate/ postgraduate education.

To find out more about this issue, please click here. If you agree with us, please sign our petition below. Your name, status and comments will be publicly displayed on this website, but your email address will be kept for our records so that, if necessary, we can prove that the signatories to this petition are genuine.

This petition is endorsed by the BMA Medical Students Committee.
"I believe that the government is wrong to apply the new Home Office immigration rules to existing international medical students, which will prevent them from continuing their post graduate training in the UK after they have completed their foundation years.""


there you have it, a bit of background information about the ruling that's causing such an uproar within the international medical committee.....and it's absurd really...considering one of the many things promised in the brochures sent with my offer letter included a secure future in the UK health industry......so to extend this ruling to existing medical students is tasteless to say the least and akin to a breach of contract.....why, one can almost say we, or rather our 500 grand in fees, were lured to this country under false pretenses......

and to think just the other day my coursemate was trying to persuade me to stay after completing my degree while I was eagerly laying out the advantages of going home.......none of which I meant ,of course...face it, I'm a girl, I like to be cajoled and asked to stay :P......

but the way things are going...there may not even be an option...which brings me back to the petition.....and not just existing medics in the UK...what about those who opted for the twinning programme in IMU? or those who have been given conditional offers through UCAS?.......so do sign the petition, it will only take a second. and your signature might just be the one that tips the scale in our favour.

in retrospect...I should've just married the damn dishwasher when I had the chance...fuggedy:(

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I'll go out with Dr. House :D

www.medschoolsonline.co.uk
would really appreciate it if anyone who reads this blog could just click on the link above or the icon on the sidebar and sign the petition against the new immigration/work permit ruling for international medical students in the UK. it would only take a second and it just might help.
cheers

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

Tag, you're it

Got tagged by Mars......and since this is the last free weekend I have...well the last weekend I'll allow myself to be free...I shall humour her by listing 6 weird things about yours truly..so here goes:

1. I'm Mar's friend...she takes pictures of her nostrils...need I say more

2. I work better when my table is cluttered.....that's what everyone calls it anyway..clutter..I beg to differ...I call it creative chaos..and it's technically not a sign of disorganization if there is such a word since I know exactly where everything is...There is a reason the green pen is in Grey's Anatomy which is on top of the Moses and Banks Atlas which is half wedged between Berne and Levy and Underwood's Pathology which is next to my laptop which is next to my non-fat digestives and diet coke....see the connection?

3. I decapitate my food....literally...I bite off heads of gummy bears and leave the bodies for whoever would eat them...if I'm in a good mood i might consider eating the arms and the legs..but I never touch the body...the little jewel cookies from my childhood?the pretty ones with the colourful crunchy swirl of icing on top? I only eat the icing...I leave the biscuit base for my parents with the excuse that I love them too much to put them at risk of diabetes.

4. I suffer from mild joint laxity...i can bend my thumb 90 degrees back...more if I apply force..I can bend my thumb 90 degrees to the side and tuck it behind my forefinger....and because I'm such a cool older cousin, I use these tricks to convice my younger cousins that if i twist hard enough I can pull my thumb off and stick it back on just to scare them so they dont try to sit on my lap

5. When I was young I talked to the wall and had an imaginary bridesmaid and my mum got scared and that's how I got a baby sister

6. I have a theory that the more I want something and the more I think about it, the slimmer the chances are of me getting what I want. so I convince myself I dont want whatever it is I really want so that I wont think about it so that I will get what I want. sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt.

There...I'm not thaaat weird am I? dont answer that...I also mentally shoot people who dont say what I want them to say :D

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Sunday, May 07, 2006

Tribute to my first love

I ran out of blogs to read during one of my revision breaks...so I went on this website my sister told me about ages ago...www.baidu.com......it's where my culture-starved self gets my monthly fix of the latest in Taiwanese pop..in all fairness, some of these songs might actually get the Simon Cowell stamp of approval...there's an american jazz instrumental version of Jay Chou's "Dong Feng Puo"...it's called East Wind Breaks...how original:P
* to the chinese-illiterate, it's a literal translation of the original Mandarin title

So there's this part of the site that lists the top 500 golden hits......80% of the songs listed were songs from my childhood......isn't "golden" supposed to mean songs circa oh I don't know.. George Washington's cherry tree? if the songs from my childhood are now considered "golden"..does that then make me a golden girl? I want to be Blanche...or however it is you spell her name.....and I have officially hit rock-bottom with my mid/quarter(?) life crisis...gah...If I'm old then my mum is a century egg..wahaha..wonder what they call the songs from her childhood :P

But I digress...while skimming through the list I came across this name..Jimmy Lim Zhi Ying.....my first crush.......I had every single one of his cassettes...[cassettes??!fuck, I really am old...], I knew the lyrics to every song, his songs were the only thing I would sing at family karaoke thingies, I videotaped his concerts religiously....I knew every damn game show he'd ever been on...heck I had T-shirts with his face printed on the front...and my really cool older cousins from abroad used to ply me with bookmarks, stickers, notebooks..and my ultimate favourite--a baby booklet of Jimmy Lim photos..all of which I painstakingly arranged in a pretty box with perfumed paper stars....I wanted to marry the guy...I was also 7 and probably dropped on my head earlier in the year..

Fast forward to 2006, 2 days before my locomotor assessment....I saw the song title...and clicked on it just for fun...and there it was..the familiar melody from my past..as I was giggling away at the cheesy lyrics I realized that I was actually singing along...after 12 years, I can still remember every single word.....but what I used to think was THE sexiest voice just sounds ridiculous now....if he can sell albums I also can

But now that I was on a roll, I went ahead, downloaded all his songs...sang and laughed my way through 2 albums :D...I just wish I had my boxed shrine of Jimmy Lim with me, pretty eyes and flippy hair and all.....hehehehehe....I love unexpected trips down memory lane.....and I miss being a kid...even if I did have fucked up taste in music:P

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Thursday, May 04, 2006

Shou

I remember once when my friend was complaining of drowsiness...I told her to take a cold shower. She gave me a look that was nothing short of sheer mortification and said:" Jade luv, you are either very crazy or very sadistic"......I found out why today.
It was 17 degrees outside, bloody stuffy and for some reason I don't quite get..I decided to do a 45-minute late-afternoon workout...made sense at the time...
I ended up sweating like a pig and as any idiot from a tropical country would, decided to take a cold shower...
But you see, water here doesnt work like it does in Malaysia where an outer temperature of 37 degrees pretty much parboils the pipes..and then cools down while you lather and condition..I got in, turned the shower on full blast......and cursed everyone and everything within a 5-mile radius.....

Housemate flings the door open and rushes in: Omigod Jade are you hurt?

Me..still cursing and near tears: no no..not hurt..

Housemate: are u sure? what happened?

Me:......I uh....I tried taking a cold shower....*secretly wants to dig a tunnel back to Malaysia"

Housemate: ...*silence*..........i see.......*hysterical laughter*...

that's the last time I ever try that again...it was like the time Yi put an ice cube down my shirt..only a hundred ice-cubes worse.....at least my housemate was sweet enough to wait outside just to make sure.....after she told half the house of course..

I saw a patient last week...and the first thing she said was " My, what lovely cold hands you have"....." All the better to percuss your chest with my dear, wahaha"...nola..I was so tempted to but my G.P was in the room....and now we know why medics dont write fairy-tales..

It's not the first time someone's commented on my hands...their lack of warmth anyway....which is odd...I didn't use to be like this...there was a time when everytime it rained, or we were in a cold room...everyone would crowd around me...I was like a friggin walking radiator....on hindsight that could just have been pre-pubescent boys trying something funny...cheeky bastards.....
but i did...I had really really warm hands...and I liked them because my dad has warm hands...probably one of the few things I had in common with him and actually clung on to...I have half my dad's nose, inability to swim, pretty fingernails and to some point, warm hands........I have cold hands now.....I should probably learn how to swim....and I've always wanted rhinoplasty......which means 10 years from now when people ask me how I'm like my dad...character and personality aside....the only thing I can show them are my fingernails.......tell me that's not sad...

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Monday, May 01, 2006

Jelly and Mousse

Turns out gelatin is a very very nice way of saying partly denatured collagen....i.e Pam Anderson's lips 30 yrs down the road..........and I just had a huge trifle...mousse, jelly and all.....I think I'm going to be sick :S

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Bagels and cream cheese

I've been waiting for spring to arrive...but now that it's here I want to shove it back up mother nature's loins...buildings here aren't built for warm weather, ...and this bugs me because the one time I get to see the sun,I have to keep my curtains drawn so that the whole of Connaught won't see me prancing around my room in my underwear ......which annoys me even more so I try to compensate by leaving my window open all the time.....which just pisses me off because the stoopid Brits can get so fucking noisy at night...but I can't complain anymore because I wont..because the receptionist has heard from me so often this week he now recognizes my voice--:"yes the medical student from Connaught, I'll send someone right over"

So I've taken to studying with my head phones on...I had no idea you could listen the the radio on I-tunes! got 24-hr jazz station one!.....just realized how pathetic that sounded :(........until half way through histology an advert came up...so now all I can think about is real estate and how important it is to be able to own a house next to your favourite pizza parlour...
and the fact that I have a crush on Mcdreamy from Grey's Anatomy..sighhh.....although in all honesty, I probably wouldn't give him a second glance if he weren't playing a neurosurgeon......just like how I fast forward all the parts where Dr. Burke is not in his scrubs.......snobbery much?...bite me :P

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